first week awaits

i've been at school for the past two weeks and it's just amazing all that has happened in that short amount of time. i'm definitely excited to see what is in store for the year ahead.  i just pray that i can remain excited about the year and that i do not lose the expectant attitude i currently possess. i pray for continued interactions with others and with God--and a deeper look into God and all that he means to me. i pray for his strength as i am tiring myself out with everything i've gotten involved with. most of all, i pray for his love and presence to shine through me as i meet each and every person around me.

my prayer today

is that all those suffering may experience the hope and comfort only God can provide for better days, that all those fighting for their lives against sickness may receive healing and be consoled in their desperation, and that no one ever has to go about seeking healing alone.

yeah, visits to the hospital are always sobering.

initial feelings after leaders retreat

God, you're scaring me.
i believe, but please help my unbelief.

out of the saltshaker

"God can use our difficulties to deepen our faith, strengthen our character, and walk with us as we go through these hard times."

frustrated, resentful, indignant

where do i draw the line between serving someone as Christ calls us and being a doormat, only to be used and walked over, discarded when no longer useful? when i am not seen as a human but rather as a means of transportation, why do i feel so torn to say "no"? does this feeling mean i'm supposed to say "yes" every time someone wants a favor from me? ...even if, in my eyes, this person is just trying to live according to a selfish way of life and i am just promoting it by giving in, basically saying "your wish is my command"? should i just go along with the request or go against it? why do i feel shitty either way i respond to the situation?