listening

i need to be a better listener. if i keep on demanding God to show himself and to be present in my life, but i refuse to leave space for him to speak to me and reveal himself and his love to me, then i am just being bitter and stubborn. i am just venting. i'm not being receptive to what he has in store for me. rather, i'm just being a brat, not willing to change, not willing to listen. my pleas for him to show himself are empty and pointless. so my prayer today is that God would be able to break through that barrier i've built and teach me what it means to listen attentively to his word and truth so that i may be able to know where to go from here.