my heart is very bitter right now, again. even more so, it feels hurt. it feels torn. it feels very, very frustrated. the worst part of everything is that i don't know what to do with these emotions. i don't know where to start in an effort to address them and to move on from here. i have reached a point where i just want to be alone. i just want to get away from everything and everyone--and not deal with anything.
none of these emotions. none of these upcoming finals. none of these people around me.
i just want to be out of this situation altogether and be able to rest and not constantly be consumed with so many thoughts and so many frustrations and so many chores to do throughout my day.
i am stuck. i am hopeless. i am drained. i want to be out of this rut. most of all, i want to believe that the people around me, the people i love--that they care for me and value me and understand me.
but i can't.
i can't help but feel that they've failed me, that my expectations for them were too high to begin with, and that i should just give up on people. because i'm being let down right now. time and time again. and the constant disappointment is taking a toll on me.
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